I’m Not Going To Lie To You0
I am not a natural Superwoman. I would rather get a good nights sleep (that starts at 9 PM these days) than stay up cleaning or making the perfect batch of muffins. I happen to know a Super Women who finds the energy to decorate their home in an appropriate manner for each changing Season and who stays up till midnight working on fun crafts. The thing is, I just don’t have it in me to even try to be this person.
I don’t know if I ever had it in me, but it seems that these days I am struggling with working full time and growing a baby and all the rest of life. The idea of going ‘all out’ no longer is even an option for me. I definitely don’t have an infinite amount of energy to go go go and I really have to set my priorities for my down time.
Unfortunately, my lack of Superwoman abilities means that I don’t get to see my friends nearly as much as I would love to. I don’t make play dates for Ben on my days off like we used to. There are less outings and adventures overall and I am trying to be okay with that. Some days I feel like I am truly just moving through the motions of working, playing with my boy, cleaning the bathrooms, buying milk, etc etc etc.
Digging for worms can be an adventure for a tired mama.
The problem is: I feel guilty about about saying no and doing less. I feel like I should somehow be able to suck it up and do IT ALL. I should be able to make fabulous dinners on a regular basis and take my boy out on adventures and never ever complain about being tired! Oh what a concept to never complain about feeling tired these days.
I wish that my Superwoman senses would take over and I could do it all…or at least more. In the mean time, I will be dreaming of what packaged dinner I can fool my family with and counting down till my 9 PM bedtime.
PS. I’d like to apologize to my coworkers for my constant remarks of how tired I am. 12+ hours of hearing me talking about it can’t be that fun!