I’m Allergic To Wearing A Bathing Suit In Public (or even in private)0
You won’t find me hanging out in my bathing suit this summer season, at least not willingly or carefree. I’ve packed away the 2 piece for now and it’s shoved way back in my closet. Maybe it’ll come out next summer? I’ve still got a good 12 pounds of pregnancy weight on me and I literally feel it. I can feel the softness of my tummy that once stretched to hold 9 pounds of Josie. I run my hands over my hips and feel the rolls and rub the faint stretch marks that surfaced over 6 months ago. These jiggly bits are lurking far too long for my liking and I just don’t feel like showcasing my post partum self just yet.
I’m trying not to obsess or focus too much energy on how I look right now and I’d like to believe that this is a temporary state. One that just so happens to coincide with a time where tank tops and shorts are the current uniform of choice. I acknowledge, with extreme gratitude, the changes my body went through to grow my baby. I just wish things would snap back together in a more timely fashion.
A time will come this summer season that will require me to put on a bathing suit. I’m sure of it. Maybe it will be on a trip to Whistler for a little poolside relaxation with my family or maybe it’ll be during an over nighter to Harrison Hot Springs with the kids and my sister. A bathing suit will have to be packed in my weekend bag for events like those. This mama will want to splash around with her two wee ones and enjoy the moment.
It’s okay to have chunky thighs and a ripply bottom when you are 6 months old! In fact, it is even encouraged and celebrated!
It’s probably time to get myself to a proper swim shop and locate a bathing suit that will tuck in my nursing breasts, pull in my post partum tummy and let me just soak in the sunshine and forget about judging myself. I’ve got a pretty cute bathing beauty to tote around pool side.